1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
Wow I need to straighten my hair. Where are my tapers?
2. How much cash do you have on you?
Um, none. I never have cash on me, unless I'm at the mall. So if you're gonna mug me, don't. I know self-defense! I learned it in Girl Scouts!
3. What's a word that rhymes with DOOR?
WHORE.
4. Favorite planet?
Uranus. (Pluto, I believe in you!)
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
Syd.
6. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone?
Worn Out.
7. What shirt are you wearing?
My LOVE shirt. It's black with hippie flowers on the side and shoulder and it says love in all colours of the rainbow. (I sometimes call it my gay pride shirt, except I'm not gay.)
8. Do you label yourself?
No. I stopped trying. What's the point in labeling yourself? That just creates bad self-image. I don't fit into any category so fuck trying to put me in one!
9. Name the brand of the shoes you're currently wearing?
Not wearing shoes.
10. Bright or Dark Room?
Somewhere in the middle right now.
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
Um…I don't remember who took this before me. I stole it. That's all I remember. Was it Morgan? If it was her, she pree chill, yo.
12. What does your watch look like?
Like the face of my phone.
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Texting and watching TV and reading some fanfic.
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
"K."
15. Where is your nearest 7-11?
7-11? Chicago I think. I don't know. We don't have them.
16. What's a word that you say a lot?
Like, yeah, and, stuff, y'know, um, actually, apparently, fuck.
17. Who told you he/she loved you last?
Like actually said the words "I love you"? No one. Not for like a week or two. So…myself I guess?
18. Last furry thing you touched?
My dog Misty.
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
None.
20. How many rolls of film do you need to be developed?
I found my dinosaur camera. We have three. I think 2 of them still have film. And then I found a disposable. So 3 or 4.
21. Favorite age you have been so far?
I'd really love to say 1. Or 5. When you're between the ages of 1 and 5, everything is so mystifying and you see the world so simply. Then the world gets hard and falls to shit. Kind of like Spiderman 3. The only problem with saying 1-5 is that I don't COMPLETELY remember any age until like 4th grade, so I guess 15. The world sucks, but let's say 15 because I'm getting wiser. This is like the longest response ever, but at 15 I really understand things now, even though everything sucks ass.
22. Your worst enemy?
All I see is the reflection of the enemy. I am my own enemy. I stop myself, push myself, punish myself, hurt myself, love myself, hate myself, and then accept life and move on.
23. What is your current desktop picture?
I'm going to switch it with my mom's permission on the desktop computer because this is technically her user account, because mine is stupid and has parental controls that no one knows how to unlock. So it's whatever generic Windows 7 background came with the computer. On my laptop it's Avenged Sevenfold from like 2007.
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
"Mm."
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
I think I'd have to say 1 million dollars. My family is a little tight on cash because my dad is out of a job and my mom's retired. So I'd use it to pay for bills and stuff I guess.
26. Do you like someone?
It's complicated.
27. The last song you listened to?
I'm currently listening to "Beast and the Harlot" by Avenged Sevenfold, but the last song I finished was "Last Resort" by Papa Roach.
28. What time of day were you born?
4:25 or something. AM. I'd have to check my adoption papers. Not tonight though.
29. What's your favorite number?
That's a bit unfair to all the other numbers, haha. 6, 15, 7, 12, 11, 19, 88, 95, 3, and 9. 6 because he's the normal one, 15 because she doesn't care, 7 because it's lucky, 12 is my birth month, 11 is my birthday and my dad's, 19 is Jonathan Toews, 88 is Patrick Kane, 95 is my birth year, 3 is for my OCD because I do some things in threes, and 9 is because it's my mom's birth day.
30. Where did you live in 1987?
I wasn't "thought of" yet then. That's what my parents say.
31. Are you jealous of anyone?
What's to say about jealousy? I'm not quite jealous of anyone. I won't envy that they have money or possessions or love or life. Those are material. I simply admire the strength, love, compassion, and bravery that others have.
32. Is anyone jealous of you?
What is it that they have to be jealous of? My height? Too tall for most boys around here. My eyes? Hidden behind glasses. My mind? Corrupted. My personality? Obnoxious. There's nothing to have but all to see.
33. Where were you when 9/11 happened?
In kindergarten. I don't remember it. Not really. I saw it on the news, but I knew nothing of Osama bin Laden. Nothing of terrorism. The simplicity of a child is beautiful. I remember being scared for my teacher because she knew someone at the WTC. That's all of it I remember.
34. What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
I don't really do anything unless I'm with friends. We then pretty much gangbang the machine and shake it. Even though there are warnings. We're rebels.
35. Do you consider yourself kind?
I try to be. I truly do, but sometimes I have a short temper.
36. If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
I don't have very much pain tolerance, but I'd like one of Jimmy 'The Rev' Sullivan's death bat. After that I may get the rest of the bands' death bats, as in M. Shadows, Synyster Gates, Zacky vengeance, and Johnny Christ. Either that or the word foREVer. You know. In tribute to The Reverend Tholomew Plague, the world's best drummer. To the point, it would probably be on my shoulder or something.
37. If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
Spanish, Russian, German, or French. I could understand the folks around here, understand Alex Semin, understand my friend's mother when they converse secretly, or speak with Jonathan Toews secretly.
38. Would you move for the person you loved?
I think that yes I would. But I can't answer that. I'm not sure if I know love yet or not. I feel that I do, but I can't be sure.
39. Are you touchy feely?
Not really. If that means clingy like huggy or kissy, then no. If it means deep and emotional, then I do get that way sometimes. When I get inspired I get emotional. Everything seems so much deeper. Inspiration usually consists of my punk/metal/rap/rock playlist.
40. What's your life motto?
Don't look back, and try not to regret. Everyone makes mistakes, but you don't have to relive them. You're beautiful if you feel beautiful. No one has to make you grow up. Stereotypes do not define you. Don't let them get to you. That's all they have to life is stereotyping and making you feel bad. You have so much more. Take that away from them and don't let yourself get down. How you dress, who you love, how you think, how you feel, how you are to you, that defines you. They don't define you. They never have, and you won't let them. Never give in and never back down. Don't let them have the upper hand. Just love yourself.
41. Name three things that you have on you at all times?
Usually cell phone, iPod, and camera.
42. What's your favorite town/city?
The only one I've really been to is Galena. I loved Chicago, but at the same time I was so overwhelmed. I ran around like I'd never seen a pigeon or a building or a taxi. I was afraid of metra. I was afraid of people. I was afraid of taxis. I was afraid of myself. And I conquered it all. It's still not quite my city, but someday it might be. Someday I might not be somewhere between city and country girl. Someday I might define me.
43. What was the last thing you paid for with cash?
I think it was my new purple peppermint plugs. Try saying that 5 times fast.
44. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it?
4th grade I believe. I had a penpal. Her and I just…stopped. One day we just stopped. I don't see her that much. I think I'll look her up on facebook now. Maybe, just maybe, we can reconnect. You never know.
45. Can you change the oil on a car?
No. No one's taught me, and I don't think I quite care to learn.
46. Your first love: what is the last thing you heard about him/her?
If it was love that I felt, then I'm not sure what the last was. I think that someone missed him. That someone may be a girlfriend.
47. How far back do you know about your ancestry?
Not at all. I've yet to meet my biological mother and find my ancestry. With my unbiological parents I know only to my great grandparents and such I believe.
48. The last time you dressed fancy, what did you wear and why did you dress up?
I think that the last time I really dressed up was for homecoming...That was last year and I wore a dress and shoes and a shrug. I had flowers in my hair. My hair dresser picked them right from her yard.
49. Does anything hurt on your body right now?
Well it's almost a constant for my knee, foot, and neck to hurt, so yes. My heart aches too, but that's a different pain…
50. Have you been burned by love?
I guess you could call it that. I don't know love, but if it is love, then yes. Several times by several people. I can't keep love no matter if it's sisterly or true love. I've never been able to keep it really entirely two sided all the time.
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I saved this as a Word document. This was so long ago that I still had "Worn Out" as my ringtone. That was on my old phone. I apparently did this in two parts, a year after the other. So the first....30? are from 2010 I believe, and the rest are from the summer of 2011. So now I'm posting it all in 2012. I feel like I'm in the future.